am i cursed? am i a jinx? why is it that during the first week of service term, my roommate's grandpa passed away, and now that i'm officially starting course for my professional term, with another roommate, his mum passed away.. i dread to think wad will happen to my roommate for my next course..

i must say, although i haven't known j y for a long time, it's just around half a year, but we've been through much together.. the days we spent together in australia, 3 of us looking out for each other, helping one another along to pass the course.. he may be putting up a strong front on the phone, telling me wad messages he needs me to pass on and things like that, but from the back of it all, i could hear his voice shaking..
i texted him online, giving a little encouragement, and when i told him to come back and earn the wings for his mum, i broke down and my tears flowed.. i think maybe it's the stress i feel, even though i'm still on the ground, at the comfort of my own home..

do u know the feeling of exam's next week, and u know nuts about the topic, and there's too much for u to cover.. i would say, my examination topic is something i'd probably take 1 semester or even more to cover in my poly days, and i get exactly the same feeling i have for cost accounting, which i scrapped thru with a D.. i can't see myself doing it for the next 10 weeks or so, but it's already too late to back off..

there are so many things which i wanted to say, but somehow i just cant bring myself to press the send button..

i really hope i can cope with all these.. am i stepping into shoes that are too big for me?